I Suck At Saying Thank You

the past several days have been a whirlwind... with the birth of my son (braden)... the hope for my son to survive... and then the unfortunate passing of my son.

neither karen nor i would have gotten through it all without the support of all of our family and friends. unfortunately, i suck at saying thank you.

i probably should start by saying happy belated birthday to my friend (marc). it was on his birthday that karen first entered the hospital. as marc was worried the entire day, i feel that we may have ruined his birthday. so i do apologize for that. i'm sure marc would say don't worry about it and that some things are more important. nonetheless, i feel bad that he did not get to enjoy his day.

it's actually comforting to know how many people there are to support you in times of need. you realize how many lives that your own has impacted... and that your relationships with each other are truly a special thing. it almost makes me want to give up my "instigating" ways... almost. (i generally reflect about the bond that friends and family have with me on a lesser scale during the holiday season when i get all sappy... but the gist of it is definitely true... relationships are important.)

needless to say, it is a very good feeling to know that so many people care about you. it almost makes you feel that you are doing something right in the world. of course, it could be karen whom everyone is supporting and i'm just the eye candy that goes along with her... support by association.

anyway, in the event that i forget to mention it in person... i wanted everyone to know that karen and i are very appreciative to have such family and friends who care so deeply for us. so thank you for everything. i understand that in reality there isn't any words to say to karen and i with the passing of braden... other than "sorry" and that is okay. we know that all of you are there to support us.