I Suck At Going Back To Work

today begins my road back to normalcy. although, depending on who you ask, i was probably never normal to begin with.

in the name of normalcy, however, i went back to work today. too bad i suck at going back to work.

i was dreading going back to work... not that i dislike my job or anything. i actually like my job and the company i work for in marblehead. i dread the commute and this morning's commute did not disappoint. the only good thing about this morning's commute was that i got to wave and say good morning to my son (braden) in the cemetery. i am guessing the cars behind me must have thought i was crazy for waving at braden... but oh well.

surprisingly, work itself went well today. granted, i was in a lot of meetings today. a lot of my coworkers were also quite supportive and offered to help with things, which made my transition back to work a little easier. in fact, a couple of us were even able to laugh and share delivery room stories about the birth of our respective children. my coworker (john) told me that he basically did all he could in the delivery room to not pass out. i got a chuckle out of that.

needless to say, work provided a nice distraction today. the time went by very quickly. so if anything, work has at least forced me to view things with greater focus and concentration.

i'm sure things will return to normal some day. i know it will just take time.

for anyone curious, when i got back from work, karen and i went to visit braden. we decided to walk to the cemetery. after our visit, we headed back and crossed the street to where the church was located. well, as it turned out, the church had its sprinklers showering the sidewalk. both karen and i looked at each other and thought about the inevitable drenching. then at that very moment... the sprinklers fizzled out. karen and i looked at one another and smiled... and then we thanked our little angel, braden.

i think i am going to play the lottery now... i'm hoping angels like to gamble. just kidding.