I Suck At Celebrating My Son's Birthday

Had my son (Braden) not passed away, he would have been four years old today. Happy birthday Braden! Too bad I suck at celebrating my son's birthday.

It's amazing how quickly time goes by. There are times where it seems just like yesterday that I held him in my hands. And before I forget, I wanted to thank my friend (Jen), my favorite cousin-in-law (Karlene) and her husband (Tommy), and my BFF (Kerry) for their thoughtful wishes today.

I don't expect people to remember Braden's birthday. So it means a lot to me that they were thinking of him on his special day. I'm lucky to have thoughtful people in my life.

I wish I could have said today was a great day. Unfortunately, my two year old daughter (Briana) and my six month old daughter (Bridget) weren't exactly on their best behaviors today. Regardless, I was pleased that Briana went with Karen and I to visit Braden at the cemetery amid the pouring rain.

I thought the cemetery visit was nice. As Karen and Briana were heading back to the car, I stayed to say my goodbyes to Braden. With umbrella in hand, I knelt down, kissed my hand and placed it on Braden's grave marker. When I turned around, there was Briana standing right in front of me with a big smile. It was pleasant surprise and a touching moment for me. If only she were good the rest of the day.

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed your birthday Braden. Mommy and Daddy love you and miss you!